A day with my hubby......

Its really a challenge for being a wife. Wait!!!! I am not being biased. But seriously, its challenging for being a wife [Some refer it as a thankless job]. My hubby is the best thing that happened to me. No complains. But at times - I just wished - "I wish all his gadgets just stops working for 1 day and let all his time be mine..."

May be 'Lady Gaga' [mother nature] was seriously pleased with me for some stupid thing I did and that day arrived. 21st December, 2010. One whole day, just the two of us, without any gadget, I can proudly say - THE BEST DAY. Is lady Gaga listening?

Day started really early. We had to finish some imp errand so he headed out around 9am. After 1.5 hours drive, we reached the destination and fished what we came for. Once it was done, we did some shopping :) - okay... no jealousy plz.

And this time - he didn't complain that he hates shopping. I am not a shopaholic person myself but I love doing window shopping. After shopping, we went for lunch at this Indian restaurant. It was interesting....

Then we headed out for what he just simply loves - Cars [Audi]. It was simply AMAZING. Can we get back that 2 hours again? Plzzzzzzzzzzz!!!!! After that we went to collect my last pay check [shhhhhhhh - I worked for few months]. After some 'non-violent' fights, [no blood was shed], I got my pay-check. I am happy that bid goodbye.

While heading back home, all I was able to think was - God let this day restart and I can be with DH all over again - just the two of us and no gadgets.

Good things don't last long. And the day ended. But the best thing is always stored till the end. Before the clock struck midnight he said... "I really enjoyed spending the day with you..."

I guess - that one sentence made all the grudges fade away - may be forever....

Almost over....

Yes, 2010 is almost over and when I look back, I recollect so many sweet memories. I would like to refresh my memories which has the tag 'Sweet' or 'Happy'. Sorry 'Sad', but I just want you to stay at bay.

With a whole lot of hiccups, I actually managed to finish my MBA. I believe that was one of my major achievements I have in my 'good deeds' book. I must add to this that a whole lot of credit goes to my DH. Without him, it would not have been possible. His constant effort and pushing me really helped me. Especially towards the last 2 Quarter. When I was almost at the verge of giving up.

I made some real good friends this year. And I am really happy about it. Few of them got jobs now and have scattered away. But at the end of the day I am happy for them. They are securing their future.

Las Vegas is something I just cannot forget. Oh... what an amazing trip it was. Although it was just for 4 days but every second was memorable. Hehe - my first swimming lesson from DH. Just spending some quality time with my SH. I wish I could relive those moments.

I guess I had a unique birthday this year. And I couldn't have asked for more from God. He sent my mom to visit me. So, right at this moment, she is here. She actually managed to spent 4.5 months. The best part was seeing her all dressed up for winter.
Time flew by and now its almost time for her to leave. Will miss her for sure. Specially her authentic cuisine.

Anyways, its time to cherish all these memories...........

Happy Birthday Honey

So, it is my hubby's birthday. And I asked him [although I knew the answer] what he wanted for his birthday? He said "Bake me a cheese cake."

And as the trend followed. But this time, I was little scared that I will end up making another disaster. So I initially thought of buying him one from Meijer or Walmart. Standing in from of the available options at Meijer, I picked up the fudge cheesecake. Other option was cookie fudge. I flipped it towards where it had the nutrition value. My aw dropped open to read 410 cal and 270 cal fat. I walked straight out of the store and thought to myself, no matter what I will bake.

So there I go... with mountain size fear and dilemma, I baked Cheese Cake for him. And to avoid all forms of disastrous hit and trial or experiment, I followed the 'semi' traditional way with ignorable twist.

And after a long wait, it came out almost perfect. I think if I do more research then I might end up having the perfect one but as of now, I am happy with this version.

So, this is what I did. I tried with 2 numbers of 1/3 Fat free cream cheese and 1 original cream cheese. I couldn't just add gazillion amount of calorie using 3 original. Added 3 eggs and 1 egg yoke instead of 3 egg yoke. Added little less than half a cup of sugar instead of 1 cup sugar. I used lime juice and zest and a hint of vanilla essence. Baked in a double boiler at 330F.

I bet, if I had used the conventional measure, it would have been even better but I just couldn't do it.

And the reward - "I like it" as stated by my love :) And I said to myself, good job girl... well deserved effort. Love you sweets and a great happy birthday to you.

Uncertain Future

Another day of sigh(s). Yesterday night I spoke to a very close friend of mine who loves me and cares for me. After our small conversation, which lasted for over an hour, I am really not feeling quite good about so many things. Suddenly I just have this feeling that I am compromising way too much. She also thinks that I am just being 'taken for granted' for being nice by nature. "How ridiculous could it be", that's what she told, "just to maintain peace, you are agreeing to things which you should not have even allowed. Some how she suddenly made me realize that I have to just think about myself and my happiness - the way others think about themselves. I really don't know what to do.

She has given me a deadline to assign myself a deadline and decide about what I should do. Kind of wired. Its somewhat like a tug of war between self-respect, love and commitment.

So here I am... trying to rethink and rethink about what I should do. If I just close my emotional senses and think through 'LOGICAL' point of view, then the answer is quite straight forward. But that is not the kind of person I am. I always think through my 'EMOTIONS'. I dont know if that is the reason I am in such a mess.

Bapi, I really miss you. I wish you were still there for me... You never left me alone, always held my hand, guided me.... showed me the right way... please just for this one last time, show me the way.

I love my self respect and my love.... Its way too difficult for me to decide...

Expect the unexpected

I am not sure if this is just me or does it happen to everyone..... So today is one of those typical days when you wake up in the morning and you get this feeling right in your tummy... from head to toe... that something is not right... Okay, its not PMS so I don't have that excuse...

I dont know why, but today seems to be not a fun day for me :( And I usually call this my 'Devil Fish' mind. It tries to make me believe that something is not right. But strangely, most of the time, it does predict it correctly.... So now the mystery is - "What went wrong?"

grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr

Messes Cheesecake

My hubby is the best in this world. The only thing he demanded on our 2nd marriage Anniversary was a home baked cheesecake. I was so delighted...

It suddenly clicked on my mind that I read a recipe of 'healthy cheesecake' that a friend of mine posted on her face-book. Supposedly very low calorie cheesecake, the best part was was - without baking. I did a super search on her 'wall' so dig up the recipe. Walla - after 45 min of research and development, I got my trophy. I quickly scribbled all the ingredients.

Next day, I gave him my innovative version low calorie cheesecake. I know - not a good idea. It was super sweet and didn't even taste like cheesecake. Grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr... But it was so nice of him that he actually finished it. I promised myself - I will make it up for him.

With new motivation, I went to the departmental store to pickup ingredients for cheesecake. Standing in front of countless varieties, I thought to myself... 1 8oz of full fat cheesecake is 130 calorie; 1/3 rd fat is 100 calorie and 60 cal fat; fat free is just 30 calorie with 0 fat. You bet - I opted for Fat Free version. I was so happy that I can actually have a big size of cheesecake myself. A full fat cheesecake is over approx 300 calorie.

I followed my recipe and after 50 minutes of baking, I was convinced about one thing - don't compromise on calories unless you seriously want to mess up :( This version of cheesecake smelled of eggs and was absolutely sweet less [Thanks to me - I just added 1/4 of what the recipe demanded] .

Lesson Learned :-
1. Follow the recipe as it says.
2. Sometimes, adding up a little 'extra' calorie is no big deal - specially if you know you can burn it off in no time....
3. Warning: don't be so paranoid.... try to enjoy life

I love you sona..... Happy anniversary - I will make it up, this time no 'healthy' version but the authentic one....

New motivation or frustration

Its tough when you play too many roles in your life. Respect to all those ladies and women who can do it. I dont think I belong to that category where you are a wife, a student, part time job and a home maker with responsibilities like - 'what to cook?', and every damn thing I never thought I would do in my life.

So breaking all the norms, I took this oath to run my first half marathon with full practice. I dont want to repeat my mistake that I did last year - running without proper training and ended up with a fracture.

Study Hard

Well - dont know what to say but I think people who used to say that everything has a time of its own does point to something. Now, while doing studying I have 20 other things to do, I feel 24 hrs is not enough for a day. Sigh!!!!

I envy my good old days when I would just work and enjoy the fruit of 'hard work' every month end :)

Just a thought

I was reading this article for one of my courses, and it had this saying - "Trust is the oxygen of all relationship. If that is missing, the relation will suffocate and die". Its a very sad emotion but I was just wondering - how true it is!!!!